thinking of you

after hanging out with the guys at Simone's house, i feel rather strange. 

rather empty actually.

it's like for a while, i've just temporarily filled that void in my chest and in my eyes. 

i did have fun. lots of fun. 

but now, i realise how much i miss you.

i'm always thinking of you.

i hope you understand.

that nothing seems as right as it used to. 

i just wish that you would come back. 

i just wish that we were still friends.

i'm thinking of you. even if you don't want to.

i'm here.

but i'll keep quiet. and feel that void in myself until i figure out what will help more than a night of cigarettes and chatter.

because the cigarettes and chatter mean nothing until you're here.

so i'll wait. and keep silent.

i'm thinking of you.