do you ever get that feeling like there's a block in your chest, in your breathing, in your movements, when all your actions are screaming out to you NO NO NO NO because it's all going wrong?
i'm tired. from work. from thinking. from business. from meetings. from memories. from places. from routine. from priorities. from crying. from anger. from loneliness. from isolation. but strangely, also from people.
i'm so tired. i don't want to keep fighting to survive anymore. i just want to live a little.
i want to get away from here. because there are memories too strong, priorties too overwhelming and i'm not ready for any of it. i just want to be 17 while i can. because i know as soon the clock ticks one second past midnight, and i'm 18, i'll have no excuse to say, "but i'm only..."
i need excuses. i think everyone does.
help.
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dot, that was quite poetic. know that 17 is only a number and so is 18, it doesnt really mean anything.
ReplyDeleteknow as you are for me, im always here for you, to listen and talk to.
i love you