Sometimes i’d like it if someone would take me around, see the sights.
Climb flights of stairs to the top of a building to throw paper planes from there.
Sometimes i’d like it if someone brought me my favourite flowers on rare occasions.
Only rarely, because it loses its meaning if it’s frequently done.
Sometimes i’d like it if someone took me on a plane, and flew into the sea.
A clear one, with no life forms in it. i couldn’t bear to kill anything.
Sometimes i’d like it if there was something i was able to hold on to.
Like a toy that i could take with me everywhere without seeming so disturbed in the mind.
Sometimes i’d like it if i could just disappear into the earth and not have to deal with this.
Turn myself to ash and just be swept away. Literally.
Sometimes i’d like to just say these things without someone telling me that it sounds so sad.
Because sometimes I'd just like to say shit like this, and not feel fucking guilty for it. To not feel bad for saying it, or feel like i've done something wrong.
Because no matter what i do, or how hard i try, it will never be enough.
I'm going to hide. Everything i believed in just disappeared.
Because in the end, i just want someone to listen, and not to judge. I want someone to stop caring about themselves, stop talking about themselves, and just fucking listen.
No one, will be waiting for me. I wish i could just sleep forever.
No one, will be waiting for me. I wish i could just sleep forever.
